yet another thing

for those of us that keep trying

I had a whole thing to write for this week - I’ve been intentionally collecting memories of things I love. I’ve been worrying a lot about things and time slipping away from me without any recollection or storage of them, so I’ve been writing my observations more, and being more observant about the things I’m observing. But today, all I can think about is those of us who feel that we are one thing away from just giving up - one friendship break up from giving up on people; one argument away from giving up on trying to cultivate a safe space; one failed conversation from giving up on dating; one job rejection away from giving up on trying; one project away from giving up on creating, and the list goes on and on and on. Just one more thing.

I see you, I feel you and I hope that you continue, even in the frustration. That you know your effort is seen, it’s heard and it’ll pay off even though it really doesn’t feel that way now.

You are so brave for trying even if you feel like nothing is happening in your trying. Showing up and taking each day second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, is enough. It sucks, it doesn’t feel great right now, but it’ll make sense eventually, and even if it doesn’t you’ll know you tried and that there are better, unexpected things to come on the other side of whatever this place you’re in is now.

I don’t have many profound words to say today, but for now, let yourself be. If you need to cry before you try again, you need time to not do anything before you give it another go, you need to scream into your pillow, hibernate from the world, lay in bed 1 hour longer - then do that.

I appreciate you, and I see your effort. It matters, and I believe in you.